DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA HAHA

Well hello there.

So the post a few days ago, I was gonna post something, but I had no idea what to write about. So yeah...

But now I totally do. So here's my story that might still be unfinished. I do not know...

Insert Marshall into the story. I don't think I've mentioned him before... But he's been my friend for like 3 or 4 months. So yeah he's a good friend. And I kinda had feelingsish for him and we had this connection. And I'd probably still like him if we hung out more, but he lives 15 minutes away in a different town, so yeah. Plus my boyfriend, Jose, does not like him. So anyways, a better background story for him:

The day er... night we met I was with Brenda and Angela at Angela's house and we hung out with Marshall and two other guys Jerry and Dave. Then, after we hung out with them and went home at like 9:30 then they, (mainly Marshall) wanted to sneak out with us. Brenda wanted to because she kinda had the hots for Marshall. Then Angela was like eh lets do it! I was a little skeptical because of Jose, but I figured I didn't wanna be left alone in Angela's creepy house so we all left to hang out with them at 1ish or so in the morning. It was really fun, I gotta admit. I texted Jose the whole time and remained faithful to him the whole time. But Marshall and me had this connection... It was really weird. But we flirted the whole time and he always stayed pretty close to me. Yeaaaaaaah.

That was the first night we met. Then I've hung out with him a few other times, but I've remained faithful to Jose.

So then Marshall had this thing where he liked Angela a lot and stuff, but she went out with Dave for a while, but they just broke up last week i think so idk. And then Brenda got this like obsession with him (Marshall) and really really liked him, but he had no feelings for her... But he was a poopy face and led her on. But I think that she doesn't like him anymore and she likes this other dude.

ANYWAYS. My whole point with this all is that I was texting him on Sunday (it seems like it happened so much longer ago than just Sunday...) and we got in this conversation, I can't remember exactly what it was about but I thought we were just kidding around with eachother but then I asked him if he was serious or something and he said yes. So he was like

Marsh: "I think your just ignoring your instincts when I'm around."
Me: "Maybe your just ignoring your instincts."
Marsh: "I am."
Me: "Oh. What exactly are your instincts?"
Marsh: "I'm going to be completely honest with you, whenever your around, if given the chance, I would kiss you. But I don't because I don't want to hurt you."
Me: "Because of Jose?"
MArsh: "Yes."
Me: "Oh. Well thank you for being honest with me."
Marsh: "Yeah, your welcome, what are your instincts around me?"

And then I told him I didn't feel comfortable with talking about it, but then he got it out of me that I used to have feelings for him and probably would if we hung out so he was like oh we should hang out sometime then so we can see. And I was like okay... But then he was like I miss you and so I didn't reply pretty much till morning and I was like I don't feel right about this and he replied and I didn't after that so he called me. And I pretty much told him that I loved Jose and wanted to be with him and blah blah and I pretty much told him I didn't want to be friends. But then he called the next day and said it wasn't worth ruining our friendship about just cuz we knew how we felt now and I agreed.... So yeah and today I called him and apologized for overreacting so much.
YUP.

Okay and the DRAMA part of it all is that the night he told me (Sunday night) I told Jose about what he said minus what I said cuz its just not necessary... And Jose totally flipped out and all this stuff I won't go into detail about. But I just told him last night that Marshall called and still wants to be friends with me and he got all mad again cuz he was happy with us not being friends and he got over it, but now he's all pissy about it all again and we haven't talked at all today yet. So yeah. I'm waiting for him to text me. Okay so I hope I didn't bore you with that HUGE sob story, but I had to get it out off my chest. YUP YUP YUP. AHHHH.

But I do LOVE Jose, and I don't have feelings for Marshall anymore. NOPE. So yeah, whateverrr.

Ba BYE!!!
JANELLE

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ~_~

HOLA!

WHATS UP?!?!?!?!?

LATER,
JANELLE

WOW. So much has gone down....

Hey... Um so I'm out of school now for the summer... And I've been with Jose for 9 months as of yesterday. And Brenda is gonna stay with me for most of the summer :/. Let's see how that goes.

I passed all my classes for the school year! I didn't think I would, but I did!! YAY!!!!! Um, then like the last day of school, a girl in my little brother's class was killed by her mom... Scary. YEah. But not at the school, like at home. :(

Jose and me got in some not really fights, but bumpy patches but I think we're over it for now. But I don't think he really trusts me like 100%. :\ Oh well I guess. He's gonna go outta state like mid summer for like 3 or 4 months :( and I'm gonna miss him a lot and I hope we last while he's gone. :(

That's kinda all I wanted to share... Okay bye bye,
Janelle.