I Don't Know

Do you ever feel like you have no real friends? That your best friends with someone and then something happens and you feel like you don't know that person at all? Like they've changed even within minutes? I feel like that all the time. It seems like my only real friends that I actually know are Brenda and my family. I mean there's Angela who I've known since kindergarten, but over the past few years, she's changed, and I've changed. I just don't know anymore.

Especially since Brenda's moving in June. Then who will she turn into? I won't know her. She's a lot different around Ericka. I don't know if I like Ericka or not. She's kinda... idk. And Jason, I just don't know. He's cool, but I just am so quiet around him cuz I don't know him that well at all. The only way I feel really comfortable around someone is if I spend a LOT of alone time with them. So not happening.

BLAH. I really hate how I'm shy. I used to not really be picky about people being my friend. I'm still not, I just don't like having Brenda's best friends be my friends. Weird. If we both don't know the person then okay.

At a summer camp we went to last summer, the one that James went to, all the people there, especially from the other church from a diff. state, I was so comfortable around because Brenda didn't know them. Usually if my friends don't know people that I'm meeting, then it's better. I think that it's because my friends have experience with their friends and so it's different, because their always talking about things they've done, but I like to include everyone because, well I hate being left out, and ha I'm ALWAYS being left out. It's just great isn't it?

So enough whining and ranting, yesterday was okay. Not great, but not bad. I guess. Brenda and Ericka came back from school to my house together. Then we met up with Jason at the library and did homework. Yeah... I only got a weensy bit done. :P Then we came back home and did more homework. I finished it all. And then we went to bed. Super eventful. :P

Hmmmm, so, what to talk about now? I think I'll make a news post. I haven't done that in a while. What should it be about, though? HMMMM.... I think.... atheism. Stupid atheists. Don't they know they're going to hell? :P


I like this song a lot. It's pretty awesome.

Okaay then.
Janelle