What's the company that's a logo for? The "Life is Good"? Oh well, so today I'm in a pretty good mood. I went to church, then Brenda left at like 3ish. (YAYAYAYAY! I mean, I love having her live with me and all, but its great to finally have a break from her, if ya know what I mean.) She's staying the night at a hotel with her dad and lil bro and sis. She's probably gonna come back tomorrow at like 4ish... So after she left, I sat down with my book. I already finished All American Girl by Meg Cabot, then I read The Second Summer Of The Traveling Pants by Ann Brashares, and then I read How To Be Popular by Meg Cabot (the second time reading it), then I just finished Ready Or Not by Meg Cabot litterally 10 minutes ago, and I started Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins. I know, I know, I'm kinda a book worm.... but I'm a cool book worm. ;) Lol jk, I don't really think I'm cool.
So, uh tomorrow I don't have school cuz its Martin Luther King Jr Day. YAY! Pretty tight. Right? Haha that rhymed. Um yeah, so life has been good today, I don't really feel all that depressed anymore. It feels good to actually have some space. Really good. I know how twins feel now. Lol.
Yester--well I guess since Friday I kinda had a mind rebound. Well I wouldn't exactly say rebound, cuz I actually think I feel this way. Anywho, I've mentioned James, right? James, my first love. James, the love I fell hardest for. James, the guy who I'm not completely over yet. James, dreamy James. :) James, the guy who lives in another state, 4 hours away. Yes, that James. So anywho, I thought a LOT about him on kinda Thursday, (well yeah maybe Wednesday too) Friday and Saturday, AND Sunday, today. I was thinking stuff like how I loved him from the week I knew him in person, and I didn't even know it. How I coulda been like, "Hey I think I kinda love you." and he coulda been like, "Well I know I love you." Yeah, a girl can dream. Plus, I think that next time I see him in July, well okay not fo sho, but like I was thinking that I would, well that I would, well you know... with him.
But then, I realized, that he probably doesn't feel the same way about me anymore, and I could ask, but how awkward would that be. I mean, exactly. And so now I don't think about it too much. I mean I still LOVE him and all, but I don't think anything's gonna happen between us, so I should stop my silly hopes and dreams. Plus now, I don't really think I would jump his bones anymore. Possibly. But I'm kinda trying to wait till I'm married. Or engaged.
Angela sent me this song the other day, its pretty tight, listen to the lyrics, their great!
Wanna know what I'm doing right at this very moment? My parents went to a movie, so I'm babysitting my brothers, my older sissie is at college, my brother is at a party thingy majig. So yeah, their watching Surf's Up. I'm on here, texting Brenda, and listening to City by Hollywood Undead. Fun fun. Okay, well I'm out.
over and out,
janelle
DAY 5 without candy ;) only 45 more to go!
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